Abyss

My heart aches for you, even after all this time
My soul weeps for you, my mind is not mine
My inspiration, my depth, my emotional flow
My truth, my sight, my justice, my woe
As it always was, it is for you
As a flower grows, so my love does bloom
It is encased in this glass, I mourn that is my heart
And so shattered it still does not wilt, nor will it start
For you, always for you, my heart keeps on beating
Though I may take in my arms another, it is always fleeting
It is lonliness and anguish that lives in my soul
When once it was your love that kept me whole
That I ache for you is nothing so new
I feel as though this is a nightmare, this life without you
Every night that I cry, only pain hears my voice
Strangled and muted, never by choice
For years I waited, pleading with all the powers
I suffered through the seconds, the minutes, the hours
I believed that someday it would come to be
And was thrown into chaos when you suddenly turned away from me
This loss is still fresh, screaming as a beast in a cage
I struggle with the memories, the pain, and the rage
I still cannot believe it is over forever
I cannot accept this prison, this hell, this never
Somewhere inside is this ember of hope
I cling to it as if it were a lifeline, a thrown rope
I dangle over the edge of eternity, an abyss
Not even able to see you, not one glimmer of bliss
Without the strength to climb, without the will to live
I grasp at straws in memories past, taking what only they can give
A memory of you is all I have now, all I have to touch
And this burns through me like fire, for I miss you so much