Destruction of a Fantasy

Another day
Another sunrise I don’t want to see
I am so lost with that empty space
In the bed beside of me

The world has no color
No meaning
When I can no longer see your face
Looking back at me
With love, laughter
With understanding
Of exactly what I mean

I never meant to let it go so far
It grew so gradually at first
What I thought was only friendship and lust
Until the day I realized
That I had went too far
I had stupidly fallen in love
With a man I couldn’t have

I fell so far
I haven’t seen the bottom yet
But the pain has started

Before I even hit
The bottom of the pit
That I can only pray
Will swallow me whole

Anything that will stop
The feeling of hopelessness
That’s filling me
Knowing this relationship
Will never be what I want it to be
With the type of man
I have dreamed of for so long

Please God, Please somebody
Grant me the strength
To let you go
Before I let it destroy me

It’s just so hard when you love
Someone more than anyone who came before
I am trying my best
To get it under control
At least not be so needy
For the pleasure of your company

Please believe I only wish your happiness
I don’t want to keep you captive
Like my heart and soul seem to be
I’ve been trying every trick I know
To get them to come back
So you can have your freedom, too.
Just a little more patience
I promise they will