Happyness broken

Happyness broken with a call
fallen from smiles and laughter into hell
in such a short time
A moment
A word.
hurting, pain deeply offset with undercurrents of resentment
needing now a moment to breath as my chest is crushed
life squeesed out of me and
I wish,
  wish hat I didn't exist
but I'm here and the easy way never works for me.