Pain, Depression and Suicide

I know of pain and suffering; Mistakes and consequences

It wasn't always this gloomy.

Once I was cheerful and bright.

It all changed.

My heart became as dark as night

I hid behind my walls; behind my fake smiles 

You said it was alright, that I was okay

If you only looked deeper, you'd see my agony

You'd feel my depression.

I grew tired of life with each passing day.

When it began,

I looked on with disdain at her,

I cringed at the mere thought.

But she became more beautiful or so it seemed

Her promise of a better world, a better life;

I eagerly wanted that.

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Slowly I fell into her trap:

She beckoned to me, I answered.

I cut off communication,

Life was bearable in my head.

"I didn't need the world" she told me.

"There's no other way out" she said.

She understood me; shared my problems.

She said no one else could help me.

She was right.

She said I was in darkness.

Yes! I needed the light.

She was waiting for me to accept her; give her my all.

I loved her; I needed to show just how much.

"A little show of affection" she said.

"Just a couple pills" she cooed.

I did all she asked; I proved my love.

I left this world to be with her;

I gave in to Suicide...