Shades of me

still there's this little bit of sadness,
here without out you on this mile.
but I'm here trying to shine on
...and just a little blue.
I can't seem to force a smile,
I'm just so bone-tired,
barely here and fighting.
trying to recover from the blow.
still there's this little bit of rosy sunshine,
promising a better day,
not quite a golden glow,
yet no longer a chilled and icy blue.
I'll always be a whiner,
but now I've learned to stand up for me.
still not giving up,
not when I gaze at my reflection and know
that though things aren't golden glorious,
I've still got that red at sunrise.
I'm getting over you,
and yet still feeling a little bit
...well, let's call it amethyst.