Still Waters

I don't even know, I just can't explain
Who the fuck are you to hand out such pain?
And why do I take it, why do I let it seep in?
Why does it burn me, why does it win?
You're like this river, bottom unseen
Still waters so deep, so cruel, so mean
Looking back on the times that I drowned myself in you
Just let it all go, became one, became true
What came downstream was a threat I'd never known
Tore at my flesh, mauled my heart, shattered like a bone
Forced out of the water into the freezing cold
Shivering and anguished, lost and alone

C.M. Cubilla