Triad-3/3: E-Mail From Him

I am confused,
shocked, hurt, and ebullient.
Afraid, joyous.

Staring at email
from him... after all these months.
Scared to open it.

Why this contact now
when I’m finally healing
and feeling again?

My life grayed the day
he severed so suddenly
what lay between us.

I couldn't believe that
he just didn't want me
didn't need me
didn’t value
what was so incredibly
right between us.

It took struggle,
months of silent screaming,
to accept the truth.

After all that
bitter pain, suddenly,
he has returned.

And one small email
out of the blue, him to me,
can still make me cry.

I was wrong
Its title gleams through my tears
as i open it.
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Oh MS,
Even now, still, endlessly, i ache for you.
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