Will You Love Me 'Til I Die? Ch. 21

"In the brief time I've been doing the meditations, Mitra has opened my eyes and I can see things I couldn't before. Not only about myself but about everything. I've been in the islands for over two years and seen starry nights like this many times but tonight I see the stars differently and I hear the waves and feel the breeze like I never did before."

"Tonight I had a breakthrough. Really for the first time in my life, Mitra opened my heart. Oh Prem, I've never felt anything that powerful and wonderful. I'm stunned."

"You know what you're feeling don't you?"

"Not really. I don't have any basis to compare it to."

"It's love. Not the silly romantic hormonal rush that most people think love is. This is love as few people have come to know it. We've all been where you are now and we're all still learning and growing in our capacity to feel and express this kind of love."

"You mean it gets better?"

"You've barely stuck your toe in Debby. These meditations can bring you to a level where you don't feel anything but love. You watched Suvarna the day she and Peter had sex in the cockpit didn't you?"

"Yes."

"Mitra told me you had a recording of it. You need to watch it again. This time look at her face very carefully. Then tell me if you think that was only lust. They weren't fucking Debby. Peter may have thought he was but not Suvarna. She was sharing her love in a sexual act. It's not the same thing. Fucking happens below the navel, love happens above it."

"I think I understand. I will watch it again. Prem, would you let me try to do that with you?"

"Of course. Do you think you can stay focused on that powerful, wonderful feeling you have? Can you let go and allow your body to express that feeling through sex?"

"I think so."

"You can't think so Debby. You have to know. You have to say a heartfelt YES. Be confident, follow your heart."

"YES!"

"That's it. Now do it."

"What should I do?"

"Debby it's sex, what would you like to do? You have had more than just that one unfortunate sexual encounter haven't you?"

"I like having my pussy licked. Could we start with that?"

"An excellent choice Mademoiselle. Why don't you swing your leg over my head and get in position."

She straddled my face and began to lower herself down to my mouth.

"Debby, wait a second. I've got a better idea. Turn around so you're facing my feet and you can see the ocean."

She pushed up and turned around then lowered herself down again.

"Now before we get started I want you to look out at the ocean. Think about how big it is. See the stars above it. Think about how far away they are in this vast universe we're in. Now think about how fortunate you are to be here on this beautiful night in this wonderful place and how privileged you are to have this time. Don't let anybody or anything make you think you don't deserve to be here. Feel how exhilarating it is to be alive and free and capable of knowing love."

"Oh Prem yes, I do see it. It's thrilling. There's so much out there!"

"Debby, that's just it, there is no out there. Everything you're looking at is here. The universe is unbounded, there is only one sky and you are a part of it. You have a new way to perceive it. You can experience it with love in a whole new way. Let go. Lose yourself in the love."

I put my hands on her hips and gently pulled her down until her pussy contacted my mouth. She breathed in sharply and tilted her head back and gave herself up to pure sensation. I kissed her and licked her until I felt her start to softly tremble. She tasted sweet as her juices began to trickle out of her. Her hips began to slowly move over my mouth as she pressed her pussy to my lips. I continued to lick her as she moved back and forth, sticking my tongue into her opening as it passed above my mouth. She slid back so her clit was on my lips.

"Suck my clit Prem. Help me cum. I feel like I'm going to explode."

My hands massaged her ass as my tongue flicked her swollen nub. Her legs began to twitch and she pressed down harder as I sucked her clit inside my mouth and licked it with the tip of my tongue. When her orgasm came it swept through her and she leaned forward and put her hands on my legs to steady herself.

"Prem that was incredible. I've never had an orgasm that made me feel so happy. That's because of the love isn't it? I want to do that again."

It was then that she spied my erect cock.

"Ooohhh, maybe I'll have the next one on your cock."

She crawled off my face and moved down to position her pussy over my hard cock. Her hand encircled it and directed the tip to her opening. Her lips surrounded it and she pushed down to take the head inside her. "Oh yes, that's what I want." She pushed down again and slowly engulfed the entire length. "Ohhhh God yes Prem you feel so good inside me. I'm going to sit here for a minute and squeeze you with my pussy. Oh... Oh... Ohhhhh yesssssss."

"I don't want to interrupt your meditation on my cock but I must tell you that you have a very cute ass and it looks even cuter sitting on my cock."

"Oh Prem you don't have to say that."

"I didn't say it because I have to. I said it because I think you have a very cute ass and I very much enjoy seeing it right where it is."

"That's a very sweet thing to say." She shook her hips then asked, "You don't think it's too jiggly do you?"

"Do that again about fifty times and I'll let you know."

She laughed then said, "Oh Prem I didn't know it was possible to feel this good. I know what you mean now about the difference between fucking and sharing your love in a sexual way. I felt that last orgasm above my navel as much as I felt it below."

"Soon you will have one that will open your heart. Then you'll know what it feels like. After that I'll help teach you how to circulate the light and you'll really know what an orgasm is supposed to feel like."

"I can't wait Prem. I want to experience all these things. I never knew it was possible."

She began to raise her hips up and push them back down. Her wet cunt slid easily over my hard shaft. She was like a kid with a new toy. Her newfound joy excited her and she allowed herself to express it. She trusted me enough to overcome the bad memory and in so doing she defeated it and banished it from her psyche forever. She was bouncing up and down on me now and taking me deep with each thrust.

"That's it Debby, play with me. Have fun and share your joy. Don't think about having an orgasm just keep loving me with your body."

She kept up her steady ride for about twenty minutes as her arousal built up. Her breathing changed and her climax came closer until it overwhelmed her at last. She pressed down hard and her hips moved back and forth instead of up and down as she milked my stiff cock with her hot pussy. When she stopped moving I reached up and pulled her back to me so she was lying on top of me. I rolled us over on our right side and spooned behind her with my cock still imbedded inside her. I put my arms around her and held her tight.

"Prem that was fabulous. All the time I was riding you I was thinking about what you said. There really is no 'out there'. We are among the stars in every direction. I really felt like I was a part of everything and what we were doing was expanding my capacity to perceive it. When I came, I felt like I disappeared for a few moments."

We lay there until my erection finally subsided. I eased my limp cock out of her and kissed the back of her neck. "Come on my beautiful young lover, let's go get ready for bed and we can love each other for the rest of the night."