A Less Than Perfect Family X-mas

"Well, yeah," Jenna kept on, "And other things..."

"What other things?" That last little bit almost felt like a hard punch to Rachel's sense of privacy. It was weird. It was almost insulting to think that Jenna may have suspected her along.

"Well, there's the fact that you've never had a boyfriend, the fact that I've never even seen you kiss a boy, you've never said a boy was cute and... the kiss we..."

"So what if I am?" Rachel said suddenly feeling a little defensive for no good reason. "What the fuck does it matter?"

"Dude, calm down," Jenna said. "No one ever said it did. I don't care if you're into girls. It's, like, the twenty first century. I mean whatever. You don't dig penis. Who gives a crap? Chill." Rachel sat there for a few seconds longer looking pissed and feeling a bit stupid for freaking on Jenna for no good reason. Of course Jenna didn't care. Why would she? Still, she couldn't just stop bring pissed for no reason, so she sat there and pouted until Jenna got sick of it.

"Seriously, relax. I didn't mean to piss you off, okay. I just didn't know. I mean, like, I suspected, but..." Jenna started before being interrupted.

"What do you mean you suspected?" Rachel said still a little pissed for no good reason.

"For all the reasons I already said and, I don't know, I just always kind of got that vibe from you. Like not in a bad way, it's just, I don't know. I'm high. I'm just babbling. Seriously, though it's, like, who cares? Stop being pissy! I should be pissed at you for not trusting me enough to say anything, you jerk. I thought we told each other everything."

Suddenly, Rachel stopped feeling pissed and instead shifted to feeling like a full on idiot. Jenna was absolutely right. She really should've told her she was gay a long time ago. Not because it was any of her business or anything, but because they were friends and the closest thing either of them had to a real sister. They trusted each other. Rachel apologized to Jenna who, of course, told her to shut up before Rachel hugged her and then followed up with a deep, detailed conversation about why she never came out and other serious things that would have been better discussed while sober, but were so much easier to get out while high.

It actually felt freeing to finally tell Jenna that she was gay and that she always had been. Until that moment she hadn't realized how much of a drag it had all been on her soul to keep such a big part of her life a secret from someone she cared about so much. It actually made her a little freak out only moments before seem that much more ridiculous as, despite the serious tone Rachel began with, the atmosphere began to noticeably lighten and they started to joke again as if they were talking about anything else until Jenna started asking her questions.

Some of them were quite innocent while others were a little more personal than Rachel was willing to get into and which were which wasn't always obvious. Rachel had no idea what to say when Jenna asked her who the first girl she ever kissed was, but she eventually, after a bit of prodding and another joint, told Jenna that it was her.

"No f'ing way!" was Jenna's exuberant response, "I took your girl kissing cherry?"

"Umm, if you wanna put it that way, sure," Rachel said after she stopped laughing before Jenna said something that actually scared her a bit, but also made her heart jump despite herself.

"You know," Jenna started slowly and then paused before she finally spit it out in a breathy whisper, "I never told you this, but that kiss was totally awesome. I still think about it sometimes. Does that make me weird?"

Rachel, who had been taking a hit when Jenna said that nearly passed out when the shock of what her step sister just said hit her and she choked on the hit before going into a coughing fit. When she finally recovered enough to talk all she could manage was "What?"

"What do you mean what?" Jenna came back feeling a little defensive, "It was a good kiss. Like all soft and sensual. Don't tell me you didn't like it, Lesbo. You're the one who stuck your tongue in my mouth, remember."

"Oh my god!" Rachel said as she covered her eyes and started to blush, "So what? We were kids!"

"Grow up. You liked it. I know you did. You kissed your step sister and you loved it. You're a total perv." Rachel had no idea how to take this. If she didn't know any better she would've thought Jenna was flirting with her, but she just couldn't allow herself to even consider entertaining that possibility. It was just too weird.

"You are so strange," Rachel finally came back. Her cheeks were still burning as she blushed and tried in vain to turn the conversation back on Jenna. "If you liked it so much why did you go fuck that douche bag afterwards? Hmmm?"

"Duh," Jenna shot back while still smiling devilishly, "Because that's what dumb high school girls do. We have sex with dumb high school guys even when we know it's going to suck. Besides, you're my step sister and it was supposed to be just a tease. I didn't know you were a lesbian."

"And if you had?" Rachel asked hoping in a way to stop Jenna's teasing while at same time hoping it wasn't teasing at all.

"I don't know! God..." Jenna actually looked a little a nervous as she said that and Rachel sensed an opening and began her own attack.

"What's that mean? Have you thought about it?" Rachel asked bravely.

"What? Thought about what?" Jenna responded her voice getting a little quiet as if Rachel's response meant everything. Rachel picked up that and even though a part of her wanted to press on with something more specific she chickened out and went with a more general question.

"Having sex with a girl, stupid. Have you ever thought about it?"

"Oh," Rachel couldn't help but notice more than a hint of disappointment in Jenna's voice as she said that and then continued after laying down her back, "Well, yeah. Like what girl doesn't at least think about it?"

"But you've never done anything?" Rachel said. She was starting to get seriously aroused despite herself. She'd had this conversation before many times and most of the time it meant one thing: she was about to get laid or, at least, she was planting the seed for an eventual seduction. Two out of her last four girlfriends had been won over with a conversation very much like the one she was having now with Jenna. The other two girlfriends had already been well aware of their sexuality and both had actually been the aggressors when it came to initiating the first encounter. Not that she was honestly thinking about seducing Jenna, at least not consciously. Well, she wasn't trying to think about it at all, but her hard nipples that were currently tenting under her thin t-shirt and bra and that familiar tingling in her nether regions were firm evidence to the contrary even if she ignored the dirty thoughts currently occupying her brain.

"No," Jenna answered after a long pause as she stared into Rachel's eyes nervously. She too was trying hard to not realize that there was something different about this conversation as she ignored the fact that her body was reacting in much the same that Rachel's was, "I've never done anything. Well, not really anyway."

"What do you mean?"

"Well, I've never, like, had sex with another girl. Not really."

"What's not really?"

"Well... remember Emmie?" Jenna was whispering softly as she said that that Rachel actually had a hard time hearing, but she nodded in affirmation just the same. She knew exactly who Emmie was. She was Jenna's best friend during her senior year at high school. They'd been almost inseparable almost as soon as Emmie moved to their town from some southern state, one of the Carolina's, Rachel could never remember. "Well... I can't believe I'm telling you this..."

"Whatever," Rachel said as Jenna paused and covered her eyes with her hand and blushed a little, "Tell me."

"We use to... you know... together when we slept over at her house," Jenna's face was a deep red as she spoke and that alone was enough for Rachel to figure out that 'you know' meant masturbation. Of course, she would've figured out without the blushing thanks to Jenna's little hand gesture as she said it that was clearly meant to imply fingers rubbing a clit.

"That is so hot," Rachel replied in a sarcastic tone to hide the truthful sentiment behind the statement.

"Oh, shut up, weirdo," Jenna said as she somehow got even redder, "You're almost my sister, you slut. You're not supposed to think that me masturbating with another girl is hot."

Jenna was teasing, but Rachel was beginning to realize she wasn't the only one in the room getting turned on by this odd conversation. There was definitely a lot of subtext going on.

Rachel used the joint as an excuse to pause while she thought of an appropriate response. As she saw it there were several ways to go with this. She could either try to sidestep the issue, change the subject or press on bravely. A large part of her was of the opinion that she should drop it now, that she was headed into dangerous territory that she might regret trespassing upon later even if nothing came of it. Another part of was of the mind that whatever happened happened. It wasn't like they were really sisters, after all. Hell, soon their parents wouldn't even be together if nothing changed and Rachel just couldn't see it changing at this point.

"Yeah, almost, but not really," Rachel finally said when she was done exhaling before quickly adding, as if to hide the implications of what she just said, "Is that all you guys did together? Just masturbate?"

"Uhh..." Jenna started and then paused as her brain took a second to process everything she just heard before choosing to ignore the first statement for the moment, "You mean like did we kiss and stuff?"

"Well, yeah, and whatever, you know..."

"Yeah, we made out a couple of times."

"That it?"

"Well, we, like use to watch each other do it and stuff. Like, you know, literally watch each other."

"Did you like that?"

"Yeah, it was so f'ing hot. She just... I can't believe I'm telling you this," Jenna said in an embarrassed whisper as she again covered her face briefly with her hands, "But, yeah. I loved it."

"Dyke," Rachel said teasingly as she lay down on her side next to Jenna and looked her in the eyes smiling oddly.

"Shut up. We were just experimenting. It's not like we were eating each other out or anything."

"Maybe you should've. Emmie was totally cute. If I'd known she was into that I might have tried to hook up with her. I bet she's a blast in bed." Rachel maintained eye contact with Jenna as she said these words waiting to see if Jenna would just laugh it off again. Jenna didn't and instead she stared right back at Rachel occasionally swallowing nervously as she contemplated where this was all leading and whether or not she really wanted to find out. Something had definitely changed between them. What exactly it was and what it meant all hinged on what Jenna would say next.

"Rachel?" Jenna began in a quiet, almost inaudible voice that despite their close proximity Rachel had to read on her lips more than she actually heard the words.

"Yeah?" Rachel came back in am equally quiet voice before hearing the question that would change their relationship forever.

"What's it like?"

"What's what like?"

"You know... being with another girl."

Rachel suddenly felt more than a little uneasy. She didn't know how exactly to answer that question. If it had been almost any other cute, attractive and interesting girl her path would've been clear, but this was still Jenna, her step sister. It was girl she'd shared a room with from the age of fifteen until she left for college. She may not have been a blood relation and she may have thought of her more as a good friend, but she was still her step sister. She was the incredibly cute girl who was now scooting a little closer to Rachel as they lay next to each other on her bed and reaching out to touch her hand gently.

"I... I don't know what to say," Rachel whispered back as she shivered under Jenna's gentle touch. This was just too weird. Rachel was deeply conflicted and confused by the sudden change in Jenna. As much as she may have wanted what seemed to be happening she'd never once thought that it could ever possibly happen and never, not ever, could she have ever thought that it would be Jenna who pressed the issue forward.

"Did you like it when we kissed, Rachel?" Jenna said, her fingers softly stroking the soft skin of Rachel's hands.

"You already asked me that," Rachel responded. She may have been comfortable teasing before, but now that she was certain she could have Jenna if she wanted her it just frightened her more and more.

"You never answered me," Jenna came back as scooted just a little bit closer. There was now barely any distance between them at all and Rachel was finding it hard to breath. Jenna was herself very nervous, but Rachel couldn't tell at the moment. Her mind was too busy trying to think of a reason to let this happen while battling back all the reasons this was so very, very wrong.

"Yes," Rachel answered more with her lips then her actual voice as she was having a hard time speaking at that moment. Jenna smiled at Rachel's answer and began to softly stroke her step sister's side.

"Me too," Jenna answered with a bit more volume in her voice, "In fact it was the best kiss I ever had. I know this sounds weird, but it was the whole reason I let Emmie talk me into doing all that stuff."

"Really?" Rachel asked in a voice that sounded almost childlike to her own ears. She would've never believed that this conversation could even take place if she wasn't hearing herself and she was still having a hard time believing it. If it hadn't have been for the feel of Jenna's hand on her side she might have been able to convince herself it was just a dream or some weird chemical in the weed, but it was all happening and she hadn't even heard the half of it yet.

"Really. I always wanted to do it again, but I was afraid you'd think I was weird." Jenna's hand was beginning to move up Rachel's side inching ever so closer to her breasts, but never actually getting there. It was obvious that she was still testing the water hoping Rachel was willing to do what she knew she wanted to do.

"Me too," Rachel responded quietly.

"Then why don't we?" Jenna said not even believing her own audacity. Her heart was pounding in her chest as she asked the question she never would've thought she'd have a chance to ask.

"Because you're my step sister."

"Is that the only reason?"

"No. I..." Rachel stopped trying to think of a good way to put it, but Jenna was not in the mood to wait.

"What's the other reason, Rachel? Are you worried that we might do more than just kiss?" Rachel could only nod in response. It was like Jenna was reading her mind. "So what if we do?"

"You're my step sister," Rachel repeated.

"You already said that, stupid." Jenna came back with an angelic smile that seemed somewhat out of place with what was going on especially considering the fact that her soft, little fingers were at that moment sliding underneath the back of Rachel's t-shirt to playfully scratch at Rachel's bra strap as well gently pull herself even closer to Rachel's body and urge Rachel to lay on top of her. Rachel fought this physical suggestion at first, but quickly found her body just going with the flow even as her mind continued to think of an excuse not to.

"Jenna, we really shouldn't be doing this. What if we regret it? What if this ruins everything?" Rachel said one last time as she felt herself falling into a kiss she'd secretly longed for for what seemed like ages.

"Rachel?" Jenna said as her other hand found its way behind her step sister's head.

"Yeah?" Rachel replied as she felt Jenna gently pulling her face towards her own.

"Nothing will get ruined. I want this just as much as you do. Please, just shut up and let it happen." With that Rachel couldn't resist her desires anymore and erased the few remaining inches between them then their lips came together for their first real kiss. This one wasn't for show and there were no false pretenses, no hidden meaning. This was a lover's kiss, a prelude to something more, something beautiful.

It would be a lie to say the kiss erased all of Rachel's angst about giving in to her desires for her beautiful step sister, but it certainly silenced them for the time being. She simply couldn't help but enjoy the feel of Jenna's soft, warm lips pressed against her own. The feel of Jenna's hand softly stroking Rachel's hair while her other hand traced random patterns on the soft skin of Rachel's back and the feel of her warm, supple body as Rachel laid on top of her was all so intoxicating.

It was a slow kiss that relied mainly on just lips softly caressing each other as their hands stroked each other's skin for quite awhile. Their hands explored, touched and caressed but neither girl seemed in any hurry to rush things along. They were content for the moment to just be there together in a sweet, intimate embrace.

Slowly Rachel's doubts became more and more nothing but background noise in her brain as she allowed herself to realize that kissing Jenna was simply glorious and something they not only both wanted, but needed. The role reversal of only moments before had thrown her off a bit and made her feel like she had to be the voice of reason, but now as her hands found their way to her step sister's small, soft breasts covered only by the thin material of her t-shirt reason was officially out the window. The soft sigh from Jenna only helped confirmed this conclusion as their slow, little kiss started to pick up speed.

Jenna, for her part, quickly pulled Rachel tighter to her only to realize that that really didn't make it easy for Rachel to continue to fondling her breast. She actually broke the kiss to apologize which made Rachel smile a little before taking the opportunity afforded by this break to slide her hand under Jenna's shirt to feel that smooth mound of flesh topped by a turgid, little nipple without any clothing in the way. Rachel was quickly rewarded by another soft sigh and a cute yelp as she pinched Jenna's nipple playfully.

"I can't believe you're actually letting me touch your breasts," Rachel said in a soft whisper as she bent down to kiss Jenna's neck. Jenna could only manage another sweet sigh as a verbal reply, but her hand found a much more appropriate means of response as she unhooked Rachel's bra and then came around to get her first feel of another woman's breasts.

It was then Rachel's turn to sigh as Jenna returned the favor of a gently tweaked nipple. Rachel jumped a little and lost her ability to place loving nips and kisses on Jenna's neck when the gentle tweak became a little more forceful. Instead she found herself staring dreamily into Jenna's lust fogged eyes for a brief moment and then squealing when those delightful fingers seemed to home right in on the most sensitive cluster of nerves on her nipples and caressed them in just the right way.

"I thought you've never done this before," Rachel said softly as she did her best to return the favor and was pleased to see Jenna squirm a little under her touch.

"I said I'd never really sex with another girl. I never said Emmie never let me get to second base," Jenna replied with a wicked smile that just made Rachel want her even more. They then kissed again with passion as they continued to feel each other up.

The kiss broke moments later much to Jenna's initial disappointment. She almost protested, but was thwarted by the fact that her t-shirt was being roughly tugged over her head. As soon she realized what Rachel was up to all thoughts of protest quickly left her mind and instead she just removed her own hands from Rachel's breasts so her step sister could finish taking off her unwanted, cumbersome shirt.